Dear Reiki Friends,
Good news. yesterday Naomi was a bit grumpy and up and walking a bit. Today she was released from the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) and into a regular room. She is being offered solid food...which means that her digestive system is more or less up and running.
Tough news. Tomorrow she is going to start on her course of chemo. I don't know what the regularity will be and so on. But you know that this will not be pleasant!
Reiki News: She is receiving....or has been receiving two hands-on-treatments a day for the last three days. Wonderful..and many distant treatments from all over...so a good steady flow of Reiki. Have you noticed a shift in the energy? I sure have!
Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!
The ticket I have for the 1st of February is burning in my hand. Can't wait to go over!
with gratitude for you all...and all those sending,
Phyllis
2012-01-17
2012-01-14
A close call
This is a photo of a birthday party on Kauai last November. The woman on the far left is Naomi, my cousin. A few weeks after this photo was taken, she found out that she had a tumor in her abdomen. Three days ago she had surgery and the operation was good but not complete. The surgeon could not clear all the cancerous material out of her body....it was closing the small and large intestine (a laywomen's description). Now she needs to have a clear digestive system in order for her to start chemo therapy. She has not eaten solid food for almost a month....they haev her on a drip system now....just "sugar water." She is also having trouble breathing.
She responds well to Reiki and is open to receiving it. I have a ticket for Feb 1 but I may fly over before this. I don't know if I can wait. She and her brother and his wife have become very close to me over the last 8 years....and she is just about ready to retire...and be free. I so want her to have this chance!
If you feel moved to send her Reiki....I would appreciate it! Her name is Naomi Nishida...and she is in a Honolulu hospital.
I had a wonderful time visiting Los Angeles and two of my old friends from before Reiki....almost 40 years ago! Where does time go? We sent to a fabulous Christmas concert and out to great restaurants...especially a great dim sum (chinese) place! Then I came home. We had some of my family visiting from the week before Christmas, the news about Naomi was starting to shake me, I was getting my little villa ready for the renters who arrived on January 1, and keeping up with the activities of the RFI.....as well as getting the 2012 schedule ready. Whew!
I went to my surgeon two days ago for my check up and have graduated to seeing her in one year! So things are going well....as far as I know. I am still, of course, under the care of the Nathropathic Oncologist...and taking lots of pills. My memory seems to be lagging behind in the recovery area....so I am going to ask to take zinc or something to help this!
I threw my annutal I Ching reading for this year. I felt the energy of this year as a breakthrough year.....I have been open to receiving news about my next work and I feel as though it is close. So I threw the coins. I had hexagram 3 changing to 63. I feel that it is right on! I love doing this.....and often if I look at former years....the hexagrams form a pattern.
One of the things I am going to pursue this year is a way for me to have seminars and events over the internet....and am starting to out line the project. I have a new friend who is going to help me get this together! Sooooo exciting.
Okay....back to tomorrow....I will be sending lots of Reiki to Naomi...and will go to church...and then spend the afternoon with my mother. A good Sunday.
with gratitude for everything I have received.
Phyllis
As for me! The last three weeks have been full!!!! Lots of lovely Holiday experiences.....
2011-12-13
Going home
This amazing tree is growing near the Chinese border in the very Southeast corner of Kazachstan. In the second photo ...that's me in the reddish shirt. There were 8 of us around the tree! This tree is said to be 1700 years old....and all the little trees around it grow up in a way to shield the tree from the high winds and other natural forces that could harm the mother tree. The place is a treasure and the energy beneath is sacred ground. I don't know the "name" of the tree but the sap is black and can be drunk as is. It is kind of sweet. The leaves look a bit like elm leaves but grow in another formation on the branches.
The third photo is of three lovely village people who live next to the tree. They are posing for my camera spontaneously! And with such joy. A simple life.
I went home thinking of this simple life.....and then a Reiki colleague sent me a lovely book....called " A different kind of Luxury" by Andy Couturier
This book has touched a cord in me that runs deeply through all of my life. A longing to have every little moment in life be a thoughtful one. This life is not easy and does not have all the "labor saving" devices in it. The value is back to personally touching the necessities of life and knowing that what I have in the moment is all I need and desire.
Tonight I am leaving the islands and going home to Arizona. As I pack...with all the things that I carry with me "just in case!" I realize that I am far from a simple life. My question is.....Is this kind of life possible? What will it take to leave the mountain of necessary things from this world of material luxury and find another kind of luxury......time.
The tree, the ocean, the mountains of Hawaii, remind me that happiness is often housed in the simplicity of the moment.
I believe that this is my prayer for this next year....and for the remainder of my life.
It will take courage and willingness to value who I am without all the trappings of the modern world. Is this possible? I will see!
Aloha! Phyllis
2011-12-06
Where does time go?
Me.....in the Maui sun!
I thought I was going to be talking with you every week for a while. Now it has almost been another month..well, okay, I have been on vacation. Not just a pretend vacation where I actually spend three or four hours on the computer a day...but a real vacation! It seems as though I was exhausted from my travels to Almaty and to Hawaii ....all the people I talk to over the internet and in person. So the 10 days I really had as down time were well spent.
Now some of you would not count this as a true holiday. My German friend used to tell me that one needs three weeks to really have a holiday. One week for just winding down from stress. Another week getting used to doing nothing...which means you don't really do nothing. And then the last week....finally you are on holiday! Seems like a good recipe! So I have just taken a baby step in holiday making. But I am proud of it!
I got back in touch with the ocean and snorkeling. This was fun and really satisfying. For the last years I have been a little scared of being in the sun and being in the water....I felt weak and not up to the surf. But this last week, I had a wonderful time snorkeling in some fairly rough waters. We went out on the Trilogy which is a large sailing catamaran. We went two places to snorkel....Molikini Crater and Turtle Town. We ended up seeing whales, Spinner Dolphins and Turtles....as well as numerous fish...including NEMO!
This time was a good experience of feeling the difference of last year when I was on Maui and this year. I am so much more confident and clear. So there is improvement happening!
I have been spending time on the computer trying to get the new website written so we can launch it soon...I will let you know! And putting the finishing organizational touches on the 2012 schedule for Paul and me. My schedule is busier this coming year and more stimulating. I will be in the UK for a couple of events and will be going on an extended tour of South America in the latter part of the year. This is exciting and some what daunting. I need to include those pesky rest days...meaning that the trips will be longer than usual and doing less. Hmmm. And I am happy to have the Kenyon Ranch so close to home for those events that will be scheduled for those weeks at home.
When the schedule is finished.....or ready to be seen, I will post it here for you all.
Well, time has slipped by again and it is time for me to get ready for a dinner out with some friends in Honolulu. I am staying on Oahu to do a weekend retreat here on the north shore.....and to see old Reiki friends and be in touch with the city in which I most connect to my grandmother. There is a sweet longing to turn back the hands of time.....and ask her all those questions I have had over the years. I will let you know if she answers me!
Aloha! Phyllis
2011-11-11
State of Health
First off, my health. In the last months I feel I have been experimenting in "being well." I have found this experiment to be stressful. I didn't know this until this week! Now I am sitting here a little disillusioned about my naturopath and wondering how I can find my way through this puzzling landscape. This all has just come to me in the last 24 hours.
To recap, after the surgery in August 2009, in theory I did not have cancer because it was taken out. The odd thing about this....is that in my mind I had cancer....whether it was in me physically. And there was a good degree of uncertainty about this state of not having cancer therefore the chemo and the radiation. At the point of starting the hormone therapy, my body baulked and I went to the naturopath. Since July or August of 2010, I have been on this regime of supplements and vitamins. These have proven by his standards to be effective.
the question now is .....do I still have cancer? A more accurate question is .....Does my body/mind still have the patterning of cancer? I find this to be so present lately.
What brought this on? While I was on my trip to Almaty....I realized that I missed the daily reiki treatments and the palpable stream of distant Reiki that I felt coming to me over the first 8 months of my treatment time.....since then, in increments, the stream has lessened. I am not complaining...for I totally understand that there are others who are more critical and in need of attention. Also the question, how long shall I keep sending Reiki? Do I need to have cancer or a unwell state of mind to continue receiving energy, including the flow of financial energy?
When will I have returned to health?
On one hand I feel I am healthier than before. I am more aware of my body's limitations and listen more to its rhythms. I am willing to spend money and time to care for my body...to treat it with consciousness. This feels like a healing.
And the other hand wonders when I will be out of the woods energetically of cancer? Will there be a time when I will wake up without a thought of cancer during my day. This does not feel like fear, but more an awareness that the event was not far off in the past and the potential of a visit is still lingering. Thus the hormone treatment. Does the treatment keep this going or is it real. I have started to hold this question with great curiosity.
This experience is still changing me. It has not gone back into the store cupboard of things that might happen. The cloud of cancer mind is still around.....and the healing or bringing to wholeness of this part of my being is still going on. Do I have cancer? Am I still under treatment? Am I healthy? All these questions that are frequently asked of me elicit different responses but touch the place in me of uncertainty.
I suspect that this is a good place to be....at least to realize that disease and conditions do not just go away because the physical body has been changed to be in a non tumor state. A potent experience of mind/body ad spirit healing. And I am not quite there yet! A sober thought and a good one. So the next step is to have compassion for myself, take conscious care, and be aware of the healing that is continuing.
with humbleness! Phyllis
To recap, after the surgery in August 2009, in theory I did not have cancer because it was taken out. The odd thing about this....is that in my mind I had cancer....whether it was in me physically. And there was a good degree of uncertainty about this state of not having cancer therefore the chemo and the radiation. At the point of starting the hormone therapy, my body baulked and I went to the naturopath. Since July or August of 2010, I have been on this regime of supplements and vitamins. These have proven by his standards to be effective.
the question now is .....do I still have cancer? A more accurate question is .....Does my body/mind still have the patterning of cancer? I find this to be so present lately.
What brought this on? While I was on my trip to Almaty....I realized that I missed the daily reiki treatments and the palpable stream of distant Reiki that I felt coming to me over the first 8 months of my treatment time.....since then, in increments, the stream has lessened. I am not complaining...for I totally understand that there are others who are more critical and in need of attention. Also the question, how long shall I keep sending Reiki? Do I need to have cancer or a unwell state of mind to continue receiving energy, including the flow of financial energy?
When will I have returned to health?
On one hand I feel I am healthier than before. I am more aware of my body's limitations and listen more to its rhythms. I am willing to spend money and time to care for my body...to treat it with consciousness. This feels like a healing.
And the other hand wonders when I will be out of the woods energetically of cancer? Will there be a time when I will wake up without a thought of cancer during my day. This does not feel like fear, but more an awareness that the event was not far off in the past and the potential of a visit is still lingering. Thus the hormone treatment. Does the treatment keep this going or is it real. I have started to hold this question with great curiosity.
This experience is still changing me. It has not gone back into the store cupboard of things that might happen. The cloud of cancer mind is still around.....and the healing or bringing to wholeness of this part of my being is still going on. Do I have cancer? Am I still under treatment? Am I healthy? All these questions that are frequently asked of me elicit different responses but touch the place in me of uncertainty.
I suspect that this is a good place to be....at least to realize that disease and conditions do not just go away because the physical body has been changed to be in a non tumor state. A potent experience of mind/body ad spirit healing. And I am not quite there yet! A sober thought and a good one. So the next step is to have compassion for myself, take conscious care, and be aware of the healing that is continuing.
with humbleness! Phyllis
2011-11-05
Back again!
Dear Readers, After all these months, I am finally sitting down to write. So much has happened in the last 6 months that I will make this a series of writings. I know it sounds trite when I say that I have been thinking of you...meaning to write....and not doing it. My guess is that I have been in another phase of my life.....trying to get back to "normal" and finding out in the last weeks that there is no normal.....and that I need to write. I am glad you are out there listening/reading!
Hopefully you have not completely despaired and given up on this blog. Obviously the topic is more me and not so much about my health...though this is always with me these days. More on this later.
In brief, I have spent much of my energy in the last year on the Reiki Home Project. You can read more about this on www.reikihome.org. It is a growing project and I hope you will find your place of contribution and commitment to this. This is where Reiki is leading me these days....despite my own retraining forces!
I just returned home from a 7 week rip to Almaty Kazkhstan...with a stop over in London coming and going. The trip was great and I am in my third day of recovery at home. I am amazed at how much time it takes to recover!
And I have put my little villa up for rent this year.....so it can earn a little money and I have the funds to keep it up in the way I would like. It is an exciting passage, as for the last two years, it has been there for visitors who have come to give me Reiki and care for me. Now I am in another phase....finding out that the Reiki is still important in my daily care and that I am glad I don't need to have people come and care for me. This experience taught me so much.
Well, I have broken the ice.....in other words...I have started writing again. I will be back with you again soon. Thank you for all of your emails encouraging me to write!
with gratitude,
Phyllis
Hopefully you have not completely despaired and given up on this blog. Obviously the topic is more me and not so much about my health...though this is always with me these days. More on this later.
In brief, I have spent much of my energy in the last year on the Reiki Home Project. You can read more about this on www.reikihome.org. It is a growing project and I hope you will find your place of contribution and commitment to this. This is where Reiki is leading me these days....despite my own retraining forces!
I just returned home from a 7 week rip to Almaty Kazkhstan...with a stop over in London coming and going. The trip was great and I am in my third day of recovery at home. I am amazed at how much time it takes to recover!
And I have put my little villa up for rent this year.....so it can earn a little money and I have the funds to keep it up in the way I would like. It is an exciting passage, as for the last two years, it has been there for visitors who have come to give me Reiki and care for me. Now I am in another phase....finding out that the Reiki is still important in my daily care and that I am glad I don't need to have people come and care for me. This experience taught me so much.
Well, I have broken the ice.....in other words...I have started writing again. I will be back with you again soon. Thank you for all of your emails encouraging me to write!
with gratitude,
Phyllis
2011-05-20
Latest News
It has been a while since I have written. So many things are happening. I had three visits to different doctors and my health is gaining. I am still taking the natural hormone suppressants and the blood work said that my estrogen is rising a bit. This is on the edge and so my Nathropath has increased the Myomin dosage which has been okay....no side effects. I am to have another blood test at the end of the month to check to see if this is making a difference. I realized that I had also become a bit lazy with one of the supplements, not taking it everyday....so now I have a different system which is working! Good!
Also my physical energy seems to be coming back and I am very happy about this. This will help with losing my weight. I have lost some but now am at another plateau where physical movement will hopefully push me into another ten pounds off! I am going for 30 more pounds! This is such uphill work and I have to keep trusting, receiving treatments, and having a good attitude towards myself.
The work I have been doing for the last 7 months has come to a turning point! The Prospectus which puts out the Reiki Home and the Kenyon Ranch Retreat has been published on line~It will be in 8 languages. English, German, French, Spanish, Portuguese, Russian, Italian, and Dutch. We have opened our hearts and vision to the world community. It is a bit scary but also exciting! Seems like the same energy feeling but with different future images. So I will trust in the work that this international group of Reiki students have created and in the timing of it all. Some think that this is a bad time to be collecting contributions. Maybe. I feel that this is the time of the community and we are ready to give support to the system and to Reiki for the gifts received. There are so many! And I am in this place of knowing that this is the only thing I am to do right now. It is a strange feeling and sometimes challenging.
The interesting experience is that is is similar to the feeling I had two years ago when embarking on the cancer treatment....that this was what I needed to give myself to....with all my attention and love. And so I did.
How many times is thank you not enough.....or said to let you know that I am grateful for the difference in my life that you have made! An awkward way to put this but in the proper order for me! This March some Russian students came and gave me gifts. They said in Russian, "May the hands of the giver always be full." This touched my heart and soul.
I feel that this is my posture when I think of this Reiki Home and my own participation in it. May my hands always be full as a give! I so appreciate this Reiki practice as my hands always feel full. I am training my mind to pay attention and notice this feeling so I do not fall into fear and doubt. Such a simple way of being full.
with all my gratitude for your full hands.
Phyllis
Also my physical energy seems to be coming back and I am very happy about this. This will help with losing my weight. I have lost some but now am at another plateau where physical movement will hopefully push me into another ten pounds off! I am going for 30 more pounds! This is such uphill work and I have to keep trusting, receiving treatments, and having a good attitude towards myself.
The work I have been doing for the last 7 months has come to a turning point! The Prospectus which puts out the Reiki Home and the Kenyon Ranch Retreat has been published on line~It will be in 8 languages. English, German, French, Spanish, Portuguese, Russian, Italian, and Dutch. We have opened our hearts and vision to the world community. It is a bit scary but also exciting! Seems like the same energy feeling but with different future images. So I will trust in the work that this international group of Reiki students have created and in the timing of it all. Some think that this is a bad time to be collecting contributions. Maybe. I feel that this is the time of the community and we are ready to give support to the system and to Reiki for the gifts received. There are so many! And I am in this place of knowing that this is the only thing I am to do right now. It is a strange feeling and sometimes challenging.
The interesting experience is that is is similar to the feeling I had two years ago when embarking on the cancer treatment....that this was what I needed to give myself to....with all my attention and love. And so I did.
How many times is thank you not enough.....or said to let you know that I am grateful for the difference in my life that you have made! An awkward way to put this but in the proper order for me! This March some Russian students came and gave me gifts. They said in Russian, "May the hands of the giver always be full." This touched my heart and soul.
I feel that this is my posture when I think of this Reiki Home and my own participation in it. May my hands always be full as a give! I so appreciate this Reiki practice as my hands always feel full. I am training my mind to pay attention and notice this feeling so I do not fall into fear and doubt. Such a simple way of being full.
with all my gratitude for your full hands.
Phyllis
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